I seem to always come back to this starting point. The part where I type that it has been a little bit since I last blogged and how I want to commit to blogging and writing more….. yeah that part. The truth is, that is still true. I just haven’t been consistent with it. I get distracted way too easily and my mind wanders. Then, the next thing you know the day has gone by and I never got to sit down with my thoughts and write it out. Days pass and yada yada yada……
I have been giving some thought to what I want to write about. I LOVE writting and I want to share what is on my brain many times, but there are just times where I just don’t. I created this blog a while back to be able to share my experiences as a runner with whoever was interested in reading and I also wanted it to be a place where I could dump my thoughts into an online journal to possibly encourage or motivate someone.
But what happened to that runner?? What happened to her voice and her strength? If you have read a bit what I have posted this year and part of last year, you know that the struggle is real. The struggle to stay committed, the struggle of being who I was before my mom passed away, and the struggle of finding my voice again. I manage to get in something here and there, but GOOD GRIEF, it is a STRUGGLE!!
I spent the day organizing and cleaning up files on my computer. I made a plan of what I wanted to accomplish. On that list was to read. To actually sit still long enough and focus to read a little book that I started reading last summer – “Make Today Count” by John C. Maxwell. I got through most of the book last summer because I was in a little support group for business owners. I happened to look at the chapters to see where I wanted to focus my attention on. The two that I chose were commitment and thinking. When I went to find it, the commitment chapter was folded in half, like it was meant for me to read it. I guess I wanted to read it before, but never got back to it.
One part that stood out was Expect Commitment to Be a Struggle and it gave me some encouragement for sure! “Anything worth having is going to be a struggle. Commitment doesn’t come easy, but when you’re fighting for something you believe in, the struggle is worth it”. Well that is true and also good to know. My husband told me today to pull my socks up and get out of my own way. And basically that is true! Time to put the big girl panties on and just go with things vs. over thinking. Just do it, whether I feel like it or not. I need to find that strength that I once had to dig deep and never to give up. Not that I will ever give up, I just need to direct my focus more and keep my commitments. To make a conscious decision to follow through with what I said I was going to do and not waver.
I get this weekend to get my mind in the right focus to prepare myself for a wonderful week, but before that, I get to pick 2 workouts to do the next 2 days and keep my commitments. I will get my nike GPS watch charged, upload the old runs to free the memory, and make a plan. I am putting it in writing now, I will do what I said I will do because I want to be successful and to get back in great shape!
The struggle is real, but we can beat the struggle!